i closed my eyes, breakdown and cry

I can't take it anymore. I really can't...

Today is the second time i broke down and cried in a week.

Things keep going wrong and god, i feel so helpless. I don't know why i'm feeling the way i do. Things seem to be spinning out of control. He's driving me mad, they're driving me mad, I'm driving myself mad.

I pressed the emergency button. It's not working. Nothing works. Is there anyone out there?

I'm stuck in a tiny room. I can't breathe. I'm claustrophobic, don't u see?

And, there are quicksands around. I keep stepping into them and they're sucking me down, down, down. Down under. I get out of one, i step into another.

I think i need a psychiatrist. This is only the second week of school, isn't it? Tutorials haven't even started.

I'm working in my lab report. Everything doesn't make sense. Enzymes, DNA, calculation? What? What? I'm stupid, I'm useless, I'm a brainless pathetic little creature.

I have a lecture at ten tmr morning and it's past 2 am now. I doubt i can get much sleep, anyway. Too many things running around in my head. Counting sheep doesn't work. I tried. Sheep just gets me more irritated cos I start thinking of Dolly. Ha.

I command you to stop. STOP.