seeking direction.

"What should i do, Lord? In which ministry should i serve? Where does my burden lie? What is my calling? I want to be more like Mary in the bible, and less like Martha. I'm getting tired. Exhausted from giving and giving, time and again. Not receiving enough. I need a break. I want to come back to God again. Sometimes, he feels so distant and i feel so alone. But i know he'll always be there for me. It's me who've turned my back on him and never he who turned his back on me. I know i'm drifting further and further away... Backsliding. I don't even do my quiet time anymore. Yet, He's spoken to me time and time again, through various people... Joshua, auntie helen, pastor george, and sister eunice--- as she was praying. God gave her a vision. In it, she saw me shrinking. I was growing smaller and smaller... From a giant to a dwarf, and perhaps, she didn't say, to nothingness."

God is knocking on the door of my heart. I've locked him out for long enough. I'm coming back to the heart of worship.