i said a prayer for you today.

"At 24, having experienced everything she could experience- and that was no small achievement- Veronika was almost certain that everything ended with death. That is why she had chosen suicide: freedom at last. Eternal oblivion.

In her heart of hearts, though, there was still a doubt: what if God did exist? Thousands of years of civilization had made of suicide a taboo, an affont to all religious codes: man struggles to survive, not to succumb. The human race must procreate. Society needs workers. A couple has to have a reason to stay together, even when love has ceased to exist, and a country needs soldiers, politicians and artists.

'If God exists, and i truly don't believe he does, he will know that there are limits to human understanding. He was the one who created this confusion in which there is poverty, in justice, greed and loneliness. He doubtless had the best of intentions, but the results have proved disastrous; if God exists, He will be generous with those creatures who chose to leave this Earth early, and he might even apologise for having made us spend time here.'

To hell with taboos and superstitions. Her devout mother would say: God knows the past, the present and the future. In that case, He had placed her in this world in the full knowledge that she would end up killing herself, and He would not be shocked by her actions."
----"Veronika decides to die" by Paulo Coelho

I'm halfway through the book by Paulo Coelho. It's not a bad book, i would say.

I heard the news yesterday via msn. I was shocked. It reminded me of the time when i got the bad news 2 years ago. I don't know how bad her condition is, though. I just hope that things will turn out fine and yea, she'll get well soon.

Going to the hospital to visit ah gu ah bo tmr. Haven't visited shi kai's dad in quite a long time too.

I should find time to go visit soon.