balancing boards, balancing acts?

Had a fun physio tutorial that i enjoyed, throughly. Trying to balance on a balancing board or balancing boards (surprise, surprise, we can balance better standing on two feet, with one foot on one balancing board. "yi jiao ta liang chuan?") Heh.

Darling number one came visiting in nus. Sat in for sci of music lect and we went for dinner at harbourfront. Too bad we couldn't find somewhere to sit by the sea. The esplanade's still our favourite hang out place. Heh. :)

It's barely eleven and i'm feeling sleepy already. I shall sleep with "kitty" tonight, whilst I dream of you.

Goodnight.

fable and fairy tales

Alone?

I'll be with you. Matt 28:20 ("And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.")

Afraid?

I'll make you strong. 1Peter 5:10 ("And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.")

Wanna cry?

I'll comfort you. 2Cor 1:3 ("Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort,")

Was talking to caline in church today and she was telling me about how she has no burden for children church anymore. And i said, "well, i have no burden for anything anymore." Which is kinda true. What do you expect from one who hasn't been doing her quiet time for almost 6 mths?

My spiritual life is almost non-existent. And i'm starting to have doubts in God.

Perhaps i've been a christian for too long, so much so that religion has become a routine. The bible verses used by pastor are way too familiar.

The topic of religion came up the other day when i was studying with sining at bk. Is christianity merely a fable made up by Man to comfort themselves? When things don't go well, they say God has better plans for you. When you start to have doubts, it's the work of Satan, so on and so forth.

Faith is blind. To have faith, means to defy the logical mind, which is how i've been trained to think.

On the other hand, how can one who has experienced and seen the work of God deny his existence?

I'm confused.

world upon my shoulders

World upon your shoulders----Silverchair

All the bridges in the world
Won't save you
If there is no other side
To cross to

When your world's not feeling ugly
And the world's not too much
Take the world upon your shoulders
And burn, burn, burn, burn, burn

Half full glasses
Lost in empty houses

Violent, big and violent
Like a thing that's big, big
And violent

I'm feeling so god-damned tired.

I want to lie down and rest my head. Just like sleeping beauty in the fairy tale that we all know so well.

Except, now, in my version of the tale, prince charming got eaten by the dragon.

happy

I'm feeling happy today.

Shy guy met ms p for the first time, officially today. And i'm glad to say that the meeting was a success! Wahahahaha.

I love my darlings!

prank

Ping got so bored studying in the library that she decided to prank sms eugene who doesn't have her number. Smart eugene didn't get tricked, for the most of it. The whole conversation quite's funny really. Me and hao were trying not to laugh out loud in the library. Here goes:

me: hey eugene, how are you? haven't been catching up with you for quite some time. I miss you... (in actual fact, i last saw him sitting next to my table in the library about 10 min ago, before he decided to head for home)
eugene: haha. really? Then maybe we should catch up sometime soon.
me: ya. miss those happy times that we had together. been thinking about you a lot. do you feel the same way?
eugene: oh ya of cos i remember the good old times. How have u been lately?
me: good. could have been better with you ard
eugene: so what have u been doing lately? sounds like life has been smooth sailing for u
me: been hanging out with michael and gang these weekends lately. yea, life's a drag. thank god for good buddies like them.
eugene: hey how's gabriel, heard he's not doing well lately.
me: who's gabriel?!
eugene: huh. you don't know him? How's that possible? who are u?
me: you've been talking to me for so long and you don't know who i am? who do u think i am?
eugene: of cos i know who u are but how could u not know gabriel?
me: i don't know who the hell gabriel is! if u know who i am, tell me my name.
eugene: who else can it be. u must be wilson. or jinghao.
me: you sure have weird friends who say things like "i miss you". Eugene!!! Don't tell me u're gay?
eugene: they are friends of mine who always like to play practical jokes on me. whoever u are, i know u purposely send me sms to play right. so who are u exactly?
me: sorry but to double check... are u eugene goh jun wei? (he's eugene tan, not eugene goh.)
eugene: wahahah.i'm not. so who are u? how come u got my number?
me: sorry, I don't think u know me and i think i've got the wrong guy.
eugene: it's ok. i get wrong sms quite often. hmm funny that i don't know u and yet u got my phone number. haha (he got fooled by the idea that someone msged him by mistake.)

Yea, wasted time, wasted sms. But it's just for laughs. Oh well.

I shall stay up tonight to finish my work.

hot milo

BK should sell hot milo. I'm sick of drinking coffee/hot tea. Caffeine, caffeine and more caffeine. And I don't want a cold drink.

Was mugging at bk again with sining and it was freezing. *brr* Perhaps it's a tactic they use to prevent pple from studying there. But then, for pple like us who are used to studying at fast food outlets, the "sub-zero" temperature is nothing but a prompt for us to bring a thicker jacket the next time round. (Scarfs, mittens and ear muffs too? haha)

Exams are coming, in about a month's time.

Shit.

Argh-y-like-this?

to you

The greatest view--- Silverchair

You're the analyst
The fungus in my milk
When you want no one
And you got someone
Through the wind
You crawl
And laugh at burning dunes
But no one else will
Ever see

Now that you know why you feel like you do
They're turning their head whilst they wait
For no one
And finally I know why you feel like letting go

I'm watching you watch
Over me and I've got
The greatest view from here
Mistakes don't mean a thing
If you don't regret them
So pack your tactic toes for the winter
Chain a waterfall to burned and withered skin
No one else will ever see

Dedicated to a special friend. I do agree with you that Daniel Johns can write.

It's such a pity that Silverchair isn't around anymore.

But then again, neither are you.

sleepyhead

Corpse bride was good. Reached PS only to discover a freaking long queue for tix and tix for "corpse bride" were selling fast. The best seats that i could get were the VIP seats (aka first row) with the screen right in front and the air con blowing at me on full blast. *bRRRrrr*

The gathering with cindy and couzin wasn't too bad, despite the long waiting time for my food and the burnt pork ribs. :(

Left for SGH in the evening to visit shi kai's dad. Haven't seen him since ah po passed away. Hmm, he lost weight, shaved off his hair and looked so much older. He lost a few ribs, cos the doc discovered that the cancer has spread to his bones. His wound looked scary, with "staples" holding his flesh together.

Went for dinner with the extended family after the hospital visit.

I'm feeling full and sleepy. Heading off to bed already.

Goodnight.

i love strawberry shortcake!

A quick update before i leave the house for "tim burtons corpse bride"... Haha. Yea, finally!

Met kr for a run at macritchie this morning. Haha. Barely covered 2 k when i felt like dying. Yes, i'm that unfit. Blah. Went for mac's breakfast at united sq. Oh, I bought a "strawberry shortcake" pouch! *grinz* I LOVE STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE! Not the dessert, i mean. Haha. I don't mind eating it <--- dessert, though. I'm not that sick, yet.

Alrite, better go off already.

Update soon.

Thank you

Thank you for taking me into consideration whenever u do anything.
Thank you for having my interests at heart.
Thank you for always putting a smile on my face.
Thank you for finding time to meet me, even if it's for two hours.
Thank you for spending time with me, even though u're tired.
Thank you for calling everyday, cheers me up just to hear ur voice on the other end on the phone.
Thank you for giving in to my whinings.
Thank you for doing stupid things just because i ask you to.
Thank you for being a blessing in my life.

Thank you for loving me.

red and yellow, black and white?

I wanna highlight my hair.

What colour shall it be?

Highest votes so far: red.

Yea, streaks of red in my black hair?
Heard that red colour washes off quite easily, though.

Hmpff.

education

I wish i didn't have to come to sch today... The weather's so nice to sleep in. Had to literally drag myself out of bed this morning for my 8am lecture. *grr*

I like Prof Ip's lectures, though. He's interesting and fun, different from most lecturers, i would say. According to him, learning is all about relearning stuff, changing our past concepts of things.

It's a horror to know that all the things that i've learnt so far, are not correct! Since secondary school, I've learnt that "diffusion" is defined as the movement of molecules from a region of high concentration to a region of low concentration and now, I've been told that the whole definition of diffusion is WRONG! As a result, I have to relearn it.

Funny, isn't it? Why can't we just start out with the right concepts from the very beginning, say, at primary school level, instead of teaching the kids all the wrong scientific concepts and making them relearn at a higher education level? Kind of pointless isn't it?

If I were a teacher, would I teach the kids what's in the textbook (which is scientifically, not correct?) or would I teach them the right things (which i'm learning right now at university level) and risk them getting the answers all wrong during the exams?

Hmm... makes me wonder about the whole point of education sometimes.