more than words

I am tired, Beloved, of chafing my heart
against
The want of you.

-Amy Lowell, "The letter"

Sometimes, i wish i was Miss Teflon instead of Miss Pea.

airport

Just got back home from the airport. I was there to send ivan and royce off to london. Ivan's not going to be back till next year july. :( Less people during our gatherings. Hmm, seems like the group's getting smaller and smaller.

Mugged in the library for more than 6 hrs today! Geez. The library is cold. Gotta bring a thicker jacket the next time round.

Saw cheryl in the canteen today. She's doing her honours this year. Perhaps we can meet up for lunch one of these days. Catch up on each other. Hee. She thinks i look nicer in my short hair. Time for a hair cut?! hmm.

Note for shy guy: if u happen to see this post, do check ur gmail account, k? :)

new pets for me

adopt your own virtual pet!

adopt your own virtual pet!

I've decided to adopt 2 pets. Donald the duck and Bubbles the fish. :) Cute, aren't they?

dumbstruck at starbucks

Shit, shit, shit. Today's tuesday already. 3 days to end of mid term break. :S

I found a nice hangout-cum-study place yesterday. The starbucks near my place. *wheee* Maybe i'll go there more often.

Was there yesterday with my sis. Put our stuff down and i was abt to go buy a cup of coffee when i realized, to my utmost horror, that I LEFT MY WALLET AT HOME!!! ARGH. Nevermind, nevermind, surely i can borrow money from my sis first? Right. Then she told me "Sure, if u can get coffee at $1 here. Cos i only have $1 in my wallet."

... ...
*dumbstruck*

Got mum to come down with my wallet. Thankfully, I don't have to end up washing cups for them.

I'm getting more and more absent minded recently. *tsk tsk*

Can't be helped. My brain's got to store useless information for the purposes of education.

not a word

It was a usual Sunday church service. While people around me were jumping, singing and rejoicing in praising the Lord, I stood still and motionless. Silent. Not clapping my hands. Not singing. Not even a word. As i stood at my seat, watching fellow brothers and sisters in christ praising God, I felt... emptiness. Detached. Unmoved.

It was a familiar feeling.

As we moved from praise to worship, tears came to my eyes. I tried to keep them back. They were filled to the brim and threatened to spill over.

Blink.

Blink.

Tears rolled down my cheeks.

God spoke to me, yet again.
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Happy mid autumn festival.

blabbering

My right eye is itching like mad. Some sort of eye infection? I have no idea. Guess i gotta stick to my specs for a week.

I wanna get new specs! Ting wanna get too. Maybe we'll go get together. *whee* Funky specs, funky specs... :)

Lehming is so ma fun... First it was the online quiz, now it's forming our own groups to do tutorial and present the answers to the class to earn up to 1% extra credit. Bleahz. Who wanna be in my group?

Mid term break coming up next week. Yippee! No sch for me. Well, i'll be studying anyhow. Anybody wanna join me for mugging sessions? I'm turning into a nerd. Geez.

I tried a new bus route home today. It took me abt 1 and 1/2 hrs! grr. I should have just stuck to my usual journey home. Sat on the bus till my butt almost caught fire. *now, now, where's the fire extinguisher?*

Enough of blabbering.

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a sad sad song

James Blunt - Goodbye My Lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

A super super sad song that makes me want to cry. Thanks to sining who sent me the song.

Today's a pretty bad day. Been mugging the day away. I hate going through "metabolism and regulation". Eeks. A million metabolic pathways to remember, compact and squeeze into my pathetic, puny, little brain.

I wish u were here to give me a hug. I'll feel much, much better then.

A thankfulness of sound

"We are born to sing. For no other reason could the intricate machinery of the voice-box exist: six pairs of muscles stabilising the oft-rocked cradle of three cartilages that adjust the vocal folds according to whim or will. To use the vocal instrument only for speaking would be a tragedy akin to driving an All-Terrain Vehicle round the corner to the local 7-11. For a packet of peanuts."

-taken off the synopsis for *overtones

by SYC Ensemble Singers

(Guest conductor: Gary Graden)

The concert was wonderful. The sounds, magical.

It would have been better if you were here with me, though.

sorefooted

Remind me never to go on the macritchie tree top trail ever again.

Walked for over 3 hrs for the 5 min stay on the bridge. It's my second time there.

The first was with yiling and we didn't take that long cos we ran about half the route. Yea. Today, me and fred walked the whole way.

Spotted a monitor lizard, squirrel, kingfisher, terapins, some unknown buzzing, flying insects that i'm afraid of and, of cos, monkeys. One monkey bared its teeth at us and fred thought it was smiling. I doubt so, it wasn't even a nice smile. More like, baring its teeth at us, warning us to back off. :S

Going off to take a nap before heading to esplanade to catch a concert. Tata.

saturday in a daze

Woke up today to work on my stats tutorial. Geez. My table looked like it's been hit by a tornado this morning. Papers, books, formula sheets all over the place.

Met sining, el and liling in the afternoon for lunch at zen's favourite jap restaurant in far east. After a satisfying lunch, we headed to galilee friends at cine for desserts. Strawberry mudpie, brownies and my mango tea freeze. *yum* Had a great time catching up.

Came back and did some more work. Some reading up on photosynthesis and epigenetics. Eeks. I don't understand, i don't understand, i don't understand!!!! *screams and tears hair out in frustration* Haha. Nvm, there's always Yaoshimi for me to check my quiz answers with. ;) My "UNreliable-check-answers" partner. Hopefully our answers are right.

*whee* One more thing struck off my to-do list.

:)

It's the little things you do that capture my heart.