read, read, read

I've been reading a lot lately. Went to the library yesterday and i'm already into my second book.

Finished this book entitled "behind everyman" by David Israel. This fiction book is written all in 2nd person narrative and the protagonist has no name. Hmm, interesting. Something different from what i've read so far. I like it. The author's real funny too. Haha. My sis shot me a "u're-a-nut-case" look when i suddenly burst out laughing while reading. Oh well, I'm used to getting that look from her. Haha. Well, that says a lot, doesn't it?

Borrowed this other book by Tom Holt. Haven't started on that, though. Shall start on it after i finish the current one i'm reading. I'm into reading comedies now. Yea. Something to brighten up my otherwise, bleak and mundane days. Something to bring a smile to my face.

Didn't manage to find a number of books that i wanted to read. Tough luck. I'll try again the next time i visit the library.

Leaving for chuch camp on tuesday. Results will be out on thursday while i'm still away in camp. Good. I don't really fancy knowing my grades, anyway.

Take it away. Take it all away.

It's turning out all wrong.

I woke up this morning, feeling like crying. I want to scream. I want to break down and brawl like some pathetic sod. Can somebody, do me a favour? Dissect my brain and tell me why i'm feeling the way i do? Because I have no idea.

I have no fucking idea why i'm like this.

"I curled myself up into a tight ball, rocking back and forth. Tensed up all the muslces in my body. I shut my eyes and willed myself into nothingness."

update

I'm back from my msia trip already! It was a good trip, i would say. Lots of good food, fun and laughter! Too lazy to blog a day-to-day account of the trip.

So here's a summary:
1) I'm never going to take an economy class train back ever again. The ceiling leaked.
2) Ah po has a dog called "kom hee" (covered ears in hainanese). We thought it was called "tommy" at first.
3) Da Jun is super CUTE and ADORABLE! The centre of our attraction. Love that boy to bits.
4) Da Ming is soooo camera shy
5) Bought a white skirt, shoes and contact lenses.
6) Tried "Assam laksa" and "Royal Masala" pizzas in Pizza Hut in Msia

Yupz, checked my email when i got home and I've got a mail from Cynovate Adventure and Learning asking me to go down for camp instructor training in June. It's not confirmed that i'm gonig to be an instructor in the upcoming Pri 5 adventure camp. The final round of selection will take place during the training. *prays that i'll get in* Oh well, i'll just go for the training, socialise, make new friends and look at hunks. *drools* haha.

I'll be giving tuition to kr's sis starting from next wk. Looking forward to that.

SMSS hasn't replied to my email yet. I hope I have a place to relief teach in July.

I'm supposed to call this friend of mine. Heard that she has a job to offer me.

I'm leaving for msia again soon. For church camp this time. :)

Things are starting to get better. Ahhh, good.

will u miss me while i'm gone?

Today's friday already! *yippee* Taking a train back to grandma's place tonight, yea, that's why i'm still sitting at home right now.

Went for a run with yl this morning at botanic gardens. Had to drag myself out of bed, literally. I looked out of the window and saw that the sky was dark. "Oh man, don't tell me it's gonna rain..." Nah, it's just that the sun hasn't risen yet. Haha. Can't blame me for being skeptical. I'm a believer of Murphy's law, remember? ;P

Anyway, today's run was quite good. Felt great after the run. Perhaps i should bring my running shoes to grandma's place. Run around and explore the place? Ha. Doubt I have the time to, though.

Hmm, I think it's good to escape from the urban city once in a while. To take time off and smell the flowers? Escape to some place with no internet, no computers, no handphones beeping every now and then.

Haven't packed my stuff yet. And i do, so badly, want to finish that novel before i set off tonight. Shall start on a new one on the trip.

grandma's place

I'm going back to Segamat on Friday. Haven't been back there in a long long time. It has been so long that I don't even remember when the last time was. It should be sometime when I was in secondary school. Used to go back there every school holiday when i was younger.

Grandma lives in this terrace house now. I miss the old zinc roofed house. It held so much childhood and fond memories for me. The slope just in front of the old house where we used to play sparklers and fireworks on every Chinese New Year. The rambutan tree just in front of the house. Running next door to play with Cong Swee and Hui Xian. Challenging Cong Swee to a good old game of Scrabble. They're all grown up now. Bet Hui Xian won't even recognise me this time when I go back for a visit. I must take lots of photos this trip. Cong Swee used to be sooooo camera shy. Haha.

Oh, I remember the old house's roof would leak everytime it starts to rain. And we'll get all the pails and basins we can find to contain the rainwater from the leaking roof. There'll be toads hopping around the house too. Not just on rainy days, we'll see them at night as well. We get to bathe with water from this huge water tank and it's icy cold. If u want hot water for a bath, u've got to boil it yourself---using those charcoal stoves in the cooking area outside the "kitchen".

I miss sitting on my uncle's scooter. My cousins and I used to squeeze onto the scooter for joy rides. I like sitting in front best. I would put my legs into the basket in front and enjoy the breeze blowing in my face. (Of cos, that's when i was little. I can't possibly put my legs into the basket now!) Sometimes, i'll get to navigate the scooter.

I miss the yun tun mian. Just up the street and round the corner from grandma's old place. I miss the satay and the roti prata too. Oh, and the you tiao.

I liked going to the rubber estate grandpa used to own. It means I get to sit on the scooter. Yay! Haha. We've got durian trees there too. I used to love durians. Not anymore. I don't know why but I just don't. Ah mai tricked me into believing that unriped mangosteens were green apples once, when we saw them in the rubber estate.

I liked going to the pasa malam every tuesday too, up the street where the shops are. They'll set up stalls on the roads. Too bad, I'll be returning to Singapore on Monday this coming trip. Mum said they have a pasa malam on saturday at another location nearby. I'll check it out.

I used to think that Grandma has the loudest voice in the whole wide world. Ok, that's a bit exaggerating. Ok, perhaps the whole town where she lived in. Maybe that's why everybody knows her. Haha. Nah, it's the kampong spirit, where everybody knows everybody. And everybody's sort of related to each other in one way or another.

Grandma's new house is further away from the shops. The ceiling doesn't leak, there's water heater in the shower and there's even air condition. Oh, and no more toads.

I'll give anything to have the old house back though. Anytime.

drizzling rain, clouding my brain

It's been raining for the whole day. I slept, read and lazed around. I'm three quarters through "The Kite Runner" by Khaled Hosseini. A real good read, i must say.

I'll look at my phone every few minutes, willing it to ring----waiting for the voice at the end of the line to offer me a job.

Today is Tuesday. Gelare Day. I want to eat ice cream and waffles.

All things bright and beautiful

This was the month of cherries and peaches, of green apples beyond the grape arbor, of little dandelion ghosts in the grass, of sour grass and four-leaf clovers, of still dry heat holding the smell of nasturtiums and dying lilacs. This was the best month of all and the best day. It was not birthday, Easter, Christmas, or picnic, but all these things and something else, something wonderful, something utterly unknown.

"My home is far away"--- Dawn Powell

I'm feeling happy, for no reason at all.

And you know something?

That's the best feeling in the whole wide world.

swollen arms and blueblacks

Just got back from Synergy's sentosa outing. I've got a blue black on my thumb, another on my right knee and both my arms are swollen from playing volleyball. *ouch* And, oh, i've got a pretty bad sunburn too. Even though today's weather, hmm, is not very sunny and it has been raining for most of the day.

Enjoyed myself today... Meeting up with the dance pple... Playing beach volley, frisbee and captain's ball.

Dyed my hair black just now. Waiting for it to set before i go wash it off. Cos i've got to go for an interview! Agency called me today and offered me a job at cpf. Customer service job. Heh. Cindy's ex-job eh? Well, I'll just take it as a learning experience.

Alrite, i'm off to get some ice packs to put on my sore arms.

suddenly, i was ashamed.

Was supposed to go for an interview this morning with eve and jh... Woke up, stared into the mirror and suddenly, i was ashamed of my golden hair. Yes, i think i will dye it back to black. I miss my black hair already and it has only been two days.

Met up with xy, jh and eve yesterday afternoon at amk mos. After which we went to cityhall cos i wanted to get slippers and we were to meet ting at 630 for dinner at MIRCHI, the indian restaurant at Esplanade. We still had the $150 voucher from food hunt.

Bought my slippers and a Puma cap from royal sporting house at marina sq. Jh, xy and I all got the same cap. Heh. It's so nice and, haha, CHEAP. $9.90 only. What a bargain! *smug smile* Got my slippers for $9.90 too!


That's me and jh in our caps!


Food, glorious food! We ordered, strawberrry and mango lassis (drinks), chicken masala, chicken makhani, some dish with potato and cauliflower, chicken tikka, some rice with dried fruits, and oh, garlic naans and cheese kofta. (did i remember it correctly?) Oh, and some soup which looked different with each order. Didn't manage to capture everything in this shot, though.


We had some desserts after that too. But they weren't to my liking. I'd still prefer the good old, ice kachang.


Group photo taken by a nice and friendly staff of Mirchi. Of course, how can i forget to mention the pretty elegant lady (one of their staff) who mesmorised all of us when she stepped out of the restaurant? Don't have her photo though.

We left the restaurant feeling damn full and satisfied. :)

update

haven't been updating my blog lately... EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!!! *woohoo* and u know what that spells? F-R-E-E-D-O-M!!!!! yeah!

Met sining after stats paper on thursday. Had dinner at suntec chutney. After which, hang ard at esplanade for a while before heading for home. Time flies when i'm with that girl, man... Haha.

Was out for the whole day on friday, from 7.30am till 11+ at night. Went for a run at macritchie wtih kr, followed by breakfast. After which i headed for home, had a quick shower and went for my haircut (for those who haven't seen me yet, my hair is super duper short now... Heh) Met ting after that to go to job agency and shop ard. After that, met msn buddy for dinner at some thai restaurant and drinks at nydc.

Met up with the hamlet sisters yesterday night! Heh. Had a great time talking abt the past times... Haha. And i missed our dearest hamlet journal!!!!

Today's mothers' day. Went out with mum just now... A day to spend some quality time with mum. Heh.

My schedule for next week is packed. I should get an organiser before i get everything mixed up.

God will make a way

God will make a way

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me

He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way

By a roadway in the wilderness
He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His word will still remain
He will do something new today.

Eme just sent me this song. Thanks.

Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good. His love endures forever. (Psalm 136:1)

thursday! thursday! i can't wait for thursday!!!!

Today's sports and history paper was bad.... Wrote some crap for the first question. Don't ask me what i wrote... cos i don't even know what i was writing about. Ha. I felt so frustrated halfway through the paper, I wanted to throw away my script, scream and run out of the exam hall. Of course, i didn't do that. I'm still sane. Sane, insane, sane, insane. Oh, wait a minute. Maybe i'm not. I'm not sure. *confused* Somebody tell me please?

Last paper on thursday!!!! Looking forward to that. Remind me to be happy regardless of whether it's an easy or difficult paper. Meeting up with sining after that. Finally, girl! No more mugging when we go out! *grinz*

A big thank you to lily for her sms-es and prayers. :)

argh.

I HATE VIRUSES.

a blog entry

Saw lynn in church today... Haven't seen her in such a long time! And, oh, she's already 5 mths pregnant! Hee. Still don't know if the baby's a boy or a girl... She'll be going for a scan soon, next week i think.

Bought a pink flowery skirt form OP today... They're having a 30% sale on all bottoms!!! *woohoo* Retail therapy rocks! Wanted to get another white skirt as well but they don't have my size. :( Nevermind, maybe i'll drop by another outlet sometime soon to check it out before the sale ends.

A short entry today. That's all folks! Tata!